Are you at rock bottom?

There is a solution. But on one condition only.

There is a solution. There always is. But it has a condition that nobody likes to hear.

You only find it once you have been disappointed in everything.

Once you have been disappointed in everything, you are looking for Him alone, your ONLY1 wish, who is the Spirit of Wisdom.

When the peak turns out to be a chasm…

You got what you wanted. The job, the flat, the partner, the recognition. You stand at the peak of your own life, and just when you should be a hundred per cent happy, you come to and find that you are actually on the floor.

"How can this be? They said that if we achieve all this, we will be happy. Isn't that what they taught us at school?" Haven't you heard this inside yourself yet, at the bottom of your heart?

And yes, it's true. That is what they taught at school, only you learned about people who were unhappy. Your role models were people who died in suffering. Don't expect enlightenment, or wisdom, from such bitter, unhappy examples.

Many wrong wishes brought you to your present situation. Wishes that in truth you never wished yourself; your parents, your upbringing, your friends, society planted them in you.

In the end this mixture came out of your own mouth; you set it loose of your own free will. You thought you were perfect, and now let's admit it: you were perfectly deceived.

You marched with the herd to the slaughterhouse. Where there is a crowd, personal responsibility is lost. You wished for the same things they did, because you didn't want to stand out. Recognition, power, money, fame. Everything that is hypocrisy.

And still you lie on the floor. Your spirit suffers, and you don't understand why what happened, happened.

I call this rock bottom catharsis. When the mind recognises that something is wrong. You recognise that everyone is only seemingly happy, because they follow the wide road that many walk: the road of unhappiness, just as they were taught.

You have to understand that everyone who has more than one wish a day is unhappy. That is what brought you, too, to where you never wanted to be. Into the deep.

What led here? Always a next goal you clung to. "Once I have this and that, I'll be happy!" Sound familiar?

So you sacrificed your present for the future, because you believed in your vision of the future. You followed a thought you were deceived with. That can last decades, or in the worse case, until the moment of death.

Back to the present, to rock bottom. You are lucky to be alive. The realisation that something is wrong with the world came to you while you are still living.

This cathartic point is the first realisation, the opening of consciousness.

It turned out that the mountain peak is in truth the bottom of a chasm. It always was; you just couldn't see that far before. You didn't want to believe that they might have lied to you.

You didn't want to believe that the world is not what it shows itself to be…

Searching

From here on, a person searches.

Look at it positively. The bottom of the pit is not a punishment. The pit is the only place where you can finally be yourself. You don't have to please anyone. You tried, for years, for decades, however you tore yourself apart, it didn't work.

There is nobody left to convince, and nothing left to defend. For the first time in your life you are completely empty.

And only an empty vessel can be filled with wisdom.

The catharsis

In the moment of catharsis the mind opens. It begins the search; it hunts for the truth obsessively.

That is when the struggle inside you for your old life stops. You understand that you can only be free if you gain knowledge. Wisdom.

Thirst for knowledge and seek it, and then in the voice of the wind you will find the melody of your life…

Michael Knight